Each and every day we were
such a part of one another

Morning, mid-morning
Noon, afternoon
evening, night

Your smell, taste, the feel of you in my hands
in my mouth
so unforgettable

The colors and the shape
vibrant and voluptuous
foreign and native
newly acquainted and old friends

We coexisted for 10 years
living for life--
Everyday you sustained me

Then our relationship
an unfortunate statistic
like so many

My pride and my independence stripped away
making me slip into the cold co-dependence
a vacuum- only you, only me

Addiction, yes, you were my drug
it was to you, to my sorrow, to my self-pity
the addiction, the needle in my veins

Moderation was our past
My gluttony destroyed us
it destroyed me

The second 10 years- limbo
the horror plateaued
my dependence and my neuroses- the norm

The final 7
I loved you
I hated you

You allowed me to live
but you were killing me slowly
and I laid down, pupils dilated, and let you

Weeping, abounding sorrows
enrapturing anger, abounding fears
melancholy and despair

You were always there
watching me and partaking in the sin
overstaying your welcome

We shall no longer be intertwined
like the mating praying mantises
death not following such pleasure

No longer do you complete me
No longer shall I succumb to you
For now I am the one who survives- only I will have the control