A spotless mind is no option
if it was I would and find
that mythical sunshine

It would make me a zombie
but the fear does not deter me
not knowing me
is the me I want to be

promenading and strolling
will replace
climbing and traversing

To endure will become to enjoy

The simple abundance is not what I can touch
I can't feel it
The simple is all there but I fear it I need more
I am selfish and ungrateful

I can't help it
I hate myself for it

Solitary